Blessings

It is no secret that my family and I have been going through a very difficult time for awhile now.  Last week (or maybe the week before?) a good friend of mine sent me a link to a youtube video.  She told me that it was a great song - one of her favorites at the moment - and that she thought I might like it knowing what I was going through.  She also warned me that it would probably make me cry.  I tried to watch it - like three different times - but just couldn't get through it.  I just didn't want to hear those words!

Then today, another friend of mine (who doesn't even know my other friend!) emailed me an attachment to the exact same song.  I took it as a sign that maybe it was time to listen to the whole song, that maybe - just maybe - God is trying to tell me something.

So I listened.

And I did tear up.

And it was good.


"Blessings"
Laura Story

We pray for blessings
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things

'Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

We pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
And we cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
All the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe

'Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
And what if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know that pain reminds this heart
That this is not, this is not our home
It's not our home

'Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
And what if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy
And what if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are Your mercies in disguise

http://www.lyricshall.com/lyrics/Laura+Story/Blessings/

There are big changes on the horizon for me, for my children, for my husband.  I don't even begin to presume to know what those changes are going to look like, but I do trust that God will use these hurts and hardships for good if I will let Him.