Why is that whenever the pieces of one area of my life really start coming together, another area of my life seems to completely fall apart? Is it just me? Is it everybody? Is it a lack of balance? Priorities?
I don't know the answers to any of those questions. All I do know is that right now I am incapapble of being a fully functioning human being in each area of my life.
Nutrition? getting there
Marriage? I'm calling this one a check at the moment
Work? blah blah blah
Parenting? no comment
Spiritual life (for lack of a better descriptor)? totally off the wagon
Household? it's bad, bad, bad
Projects? completely forgotten about
See what I mean? I've got like two and half checks and the rest is all a hodge podge mess! I'm exercising and eating better. Justin and I have a pretty great groove going right now. But...my children are back on the crack TV (seriously, TV is crack for children...I swear!), my house is a mess, all of my projects are unfinished, we haven't done our Lent activities, and I haven't done my 1000 Gifts study in three weeks! I'm hanging on at work, but it's been a challenge. Crap! I haven't even filed my tax return yet, and typically by this time we have already received it!
But, hey! I exercise at least five days a week, have a personal trainer, and eat better. I'm even loosing weight (Yay!). Right now though, in this very moment, that doesn't feel like much of a consolation prize when I can't help but feel like everything else is completely out of control. I wake up every day exhausted at just the prospect of what has to be accomplished and knowing that most of it won't get done.
I'm not sure where I'm going with this post really except to say that lately, I've been feeling like most things are just kind of spinning out of my grasp. It's a little scary and a lot exhausting. Really, I'm just ready for summer. For warm weather, sunshine, and vacation. For a chance to slow down and restructure my life once again. One of these days I'm bound to get it right...at least for a day.